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#152. Narcissism (1)
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In Ayla’s swift fall, the creaking of a wooden doll could be heard for a moment.
‘Something feels a bit awkward.’
The boy soon developed a profound insight and saw through the girl’s true nature.
‘You’re in good shape.’
Just like Philip.
‘You’re not using your body properly.’
So, like Philip.
I had mastered the theory perfectly, but my body wouldn’t follow through, so I failed.
If you said that, it would be accurate.
As a result, the limbs that had hit the ground must have been very sore… but the girl didn’t show much about it.
He just looked up at me with eyes filled with a faint sense of bewilderment.
Why are you here…?
It was that kind of look in his eyes.
There was an awkward silence for a moment as Ray didn’t answer.
At that moment, the girl, whose heart had calmed down from shock, sat up, staggering.
“Doesn’t it hurt?”
Only then did Ray open his mouth.
“huh…?”
“I think he’s sick but he doesn’t show it.”
“Oh, that’s… okay.”
Ayla, whose expressionless face had returned to its original state, shook her body off as if nothing had happened.
At that moment.
Woof!
The blue mana in Ayla’s bowl expanded.
To be exact, it got thicker.
Because the blue mana was a special form that covered the entire bowl, unlike the usual case.
Ray had been thinking about it for a while.
Its appearance is very similar to an ice rink.
The boy’s bowl was filled with a strong purple mana that corresponded to curiosity.
‘…blue. It’s clearly associated with some state rather than emotion. Like the gray mana that corresponds to composure.’
Blue was extremely rare, but it was also the color of mana that Ray had seen more than any other.
Because the ice was also spread on the boy’s bowl.
Since when did it exist?
I couldn’t tell exactly.
It’s just been covering the bowl since as far back as my memory can tell.
In fact, at first I didn’t even realize that it was mana.
‘I just thought it was a different color from other people’s dishes.’
The ice on the boy’s heart was always cold and chilling, but at some point it began to thin.
As if melting away in the sunlight.
…the exact cause was unknown.
However, the boy guessed that the starting point was when he left sector 50.
‘It’s definitely getting thinner.’
And at a fairly fast rate.
Of course, objectively speaking, the boy’s ice was still thick, almost like an iron plate.
But the thought that one day all the ice would melt and only water would remain in its place aroused no small amount of anxiety in the boy.
I resumed my observations and research, which I had invested a considerable amount of time into, but… .
‘I couldn’t figure it out at all.’
What kind of feelings?
Or is it related to the condition?
Maybe I’ve become numb from looking at it for so long.
Or is blue mana itself a trap-like color with no associated emotions?
Just as the research was reaching a stalemate, another high-quality specimen appeared.
Absolutely. Absolutely could not miss it.
Of course, before that─
“This, this isn’t how you do it.”
─I had to say what I had to say.
In Ray’s hands was a model of the ice house that had been thrown into the air when Ayla engaged in self-abuse disguised as a fall.
Crackle! Crackle!
Ice formed on the first floor and the expansion took place in an instant.
A new second floor was created.
The hardness and coldness of the ice were similar to the first floor, but the sophistication and detail were on a different level.
“Okay, try it.”
Ayla was given a two-story house.
He said this while looking at a house that had three bedrooms and one bathroom, and had a layout that a middle-class person would live in.
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“… My house isn’t this big.”
“Your house?”
“Yes. The house I used to live in. With my parents and younger sibling. They both passed away a year ago, and my teacher took my younger sibling and me in.”
The death of my parents just over a year ago.
But even so, Ayla’s voice was too calm and her facial expression showed no change at all.
‘Sadness, longing, depression… these emotions are expressed normally, but why aren’t the corresponding actions expressed?’
Ray, who was examining Ayla’s bowl, noticed one thing.
Ayla’s emotions were frozen in place, unable to move.
In some ways, it was similar to the effect of gray mana, which sits like a rock in a bowl and interferes with the activities of other emotions.
The difference was that on ice, there were emotions that accelerated movement.
Some are frozen.
Some of them just kept slipping and sliding.
‘This is the first time I’ve seen something like this.’
Curious and excited, the boy couldn’t take his eyes off the girl’s bowl.
In the meantime, Ayla proceeded with the expansion as Ray had suggested.
Ice began to form on the second floor, forming a third floor.
“It’s finished. But yours is still….”
“blood.”
“huh?”
“finger.”
Blood was gushing from Ayla’s index finger, possibly because she had accidentally cut herself on the ice.
It wasn’t a big wound.
But it wasn’t a minor wound that could be overlooked.
“Ah, this… is okay.”
Ayla, who saw the wound, took a handkerchief out of her bosom and wiped away the blood.
The blood naturally formed again on my fingertips, and they fell back onto the ice house, unable to support my weight.
Ray asked, looking at the ice turning red.
“Are you not sensitive to pain?”
“I don’t think so….”
“If you leave it as is, the wound will get worse or leave a scar.”
“Um… It’s okay, I guess.”
That was when.
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For a moment, a blue light flashed across Ayla’s ice rink and then disappeared.
“Are you sure you’re okay?”
“are you okay.”
Flash.
“Are you really okay?”
“You won’t die from a wound like this.”
Flash. Flash.
“I think it would be better to get treatment.”
“Is it really necessary to do that?”
Flash. Flash. Flash.
Ray poured out his worries as if he was pressing buttons on a vending machine.
While the boy was staring at the ice rink, the girl asked in a puzzled voice.
“Are you worried about me?”
worry.
A familiar keyword summoned the boy’s mind back to reality.
‘Don’t worry. I guess we have to assume that it’s because the ice won’t melt or anything.’
Ray, who had been thinking seriously, spoke out a sentence that efficiently summarized the thoughts and judgments listed in his head.
“I hope you don’t get hurt. At least not while I’m here.”
Then, he used white mana to heal Ayla’s wounds.
The girl couldn’t take her eyes off the boy’s face with a blank look in her eyes.
“… I attacked you. Even though it was under the Master’s orders.”
“It’s okay. Binjin already paid for that.”
Ray took a bandage out of his bag and put it on Ayla’s finger.
It was given to me by Veronica.
‘I told you to take care of yourself and not get hurt.’
I felt like I knew that feeling.
Ayla had aspects that reminded her of her Sector 50 days.
Without any purpose in life.
Not living, but living.
I didn’t care what injuries or abnormalities I had on my body.
If it weren’t for the rescue and treatment of the Guldari children on that winter day, they would probably have been left with frostbite and become just another common corpse on the street.
The recent conversation I had with Veronica replayed in my head.
“Lay! Again! Again! Again! You’re hurt!”
slap!
“You always act like you have ten lives! Please take care of yourself!”
“Veronica. That’s a wounded area. You shouldn’t hit it.”
Snap! Snap!
“Get sick just once! Every day! I’ll treat you! Come get hurt without worrying!”
“That’s right.”
Snap! Snap! Snap!
“I want Ray to become someone who cherishes and loves himself.”
And added:
“Huh, hm. You have to know how to love yourself before you can give that love to others… that’s what my grandfather said.”
I couldn’t figure out why she was shy or what she was expecting.
anyway.
The advice to love and cherish oneself seemed like something that could be passed on to the girl in front of him.
‘Because I love myself enough, unlike back in Sector 50.’
And pay attention to your nutritional intake.
Also increase the intensity of physical training.
I also looked back on my feelings, and… .
… If I think about it, it was all for one goal: a rainbow.
“I appreciate your sincerity… but you don’t need to be this nice to someone like me.”
The girl’s voice heard at that moment woke Ray from his thoughts.
“… … ?”
“I’m just a completely useless person. My magic skills are lacking, I don’t know how to do anything, and I have a weak personality…”
Girl’s bowl.
The expanded blue mana was melting and dripping down onto the ice.
My sample.
Ray answered quickly.
“Not at all.”
“huh…?”
“Your magical skills are the best in the entire class.”
“No. You don’t have to tell me that on purpose. I know my skills the best.”
“No.”
Ray didn’t lie.
Although the timing of the words was coincidental, in his opinion, the person with the highest level of magical perfection in the mansion was Ayla.
It’s just that the usability is lacking.
If you learn the right method, you could develop tremendous potential.
“You are the best.”
That’s why I said it firmly.
“The most in this mansion. Even more so than Binjin.”
“… … .”
Ray said after confirming the blue mana disappearing from Ayla’s vessel.
“Give it back to me.”
“Oh, yeah.”
Ray was given a three-story house.
Crackle! Crackle!
He said as he returned the four-story house.
“See? This is how you do it.”
“…I’ll try.”
Crackle! Crackle!
A fifth layer of even more sophisticated design has been created.
But in Ray’s eyes, it seemed that Ayla had not yet reached her full potential.
“Give it to me again.”
“huh.”
Crackle! Crackle!
The house has six floors.
“Try again.”
“huh.”
Crackle! Crackle!
The house has seven floors.
“again.”
Crackle! Crackle!
“again.”
Crackle! Crackle!
“again.”
A few minutes later, the house was transformed into a 25-story high-rise building.
“…I can’t be as perfect as you.”
“I’m exhausted,” said Ayla.
“Why?”
“That’s because I lack the skills.”
“Why are your skills lacking?”
“that….”
“I don’t quite understand.”
“… … .”
“Why can’t I do this?”
At some point, Ray raised his head at the unanswered question.
I could see Ayla aiming at me with the corner of a book held high above her head, taken out from somewhere.
It was the brown-covered book he was holding even when fighting in the empty lot in the back alley.
[Sleeping Princess in the Tower]
The title was like that.
Ayla, whose eyes met mine, spoke as if she had been caught committing a crime.
“Uh… I don’t know.”
Ray silently took the Cromwell dictionary out of his bag.
Ayla, startled, covered her head with the sleeping princess’s and walked away.
It was then that an angry shout was heard from across the hallway.
“You! What are you doing to my sister right now!”
Tadadadadada──!
When I turned my head, I could see a boy running furiously down a long hallway.
“This kid! He hurt my sister!”
The identity of the blue-haired boy with bandages on his hands and strengthening magic on his feet is─
“Little brother?”
“Yeah. It’s Ain. I think there’s some misunderstanding…”
─It was Ayla’s younger brother, Ain.
Bloodstains left on the ice building.
Ayla takes a defensive stance.
It seems like there was a misunderstanding of the situation.
Ayla spoke in a voice that was rarely filled with embarrassment.
“You said Hayler, right? Get out of here for now. When Ain gets angry, no one can stop him except the Master. But, of all places, he’s out right now…”
“Is that it?”
“huh?”
“Intermittent explosive disorder.”
Ray mentioned a symptom he had seen in a psychiatry book.
Ain’s bowl was surging with anger that was far beyond the ordinary level.
“I can’t control my anger. I’m not usually like that… but when it comes to issues related to me, I get really angry. Hey, get out of here.”
Ray didn’t answer.
He was just preparing to respond by raising the mana of the ring.
But then.
‘… … ?’
Ain’s anger, which had been running like a truck with a broken steering wheel, suddenly began to subside.
As the distance narrowed, the decrease became greater, and the same amount of anger was dissipated, creating fear in the person next to me.
Where are Ain’s eyes focused when the earthquake occurred?
‘dictionary?’
Ray looked down at the Cromwell dictionary he was holding.
Is this why?
He held up the dictionary and showed it off like a talisman.
Then, the trembling in Ain’s eyes grew uncontrollably.
Ray was certain for a moment, and when the distance had narrowed somewhat.
WHEEK!
I threw the dictionary.
Kuung─!
A red-skinned monstrosity soaked in the blood of the streets descended onto the battlefield with a dull landing sound.
“… … !”
Ain quickly slowed down and stopped exactly three meters away from the monster.
Then he shouted at Ray with an angry face.
“You little punk! Don’t leave my sister right now! If you even touch me with one finger! I’ll kill you!”
The momentum was indeed impeccable.
If it weren’t for the trembling eyes that constantly glanced at the dictionary on the floor.
“I’m warning you clearly, if you touch my sister even a little bit more, look! I’ll tear your limbs off and throw them as dog food!”
The momentum was great.
That is, if only it weren’t for the sore throat of someone swallowing saliva while looking at the dictionary.
‘You said trauma?’
Ain’s bowl still had a considerable amount of anger left, burning like fire.
But perhaps because he was too afraid, he couldn’t easily rush in.
“You little bastard! How dare you block the path with a barrier like that! If it weren’t for that, you would have died by my hand! I let you off last time!”
Ray, who had been watching Ain screaming, used his psychic powers to move the dictionary away.
Woof!
Degururur!
Ain’s bowl was filled with confusion as this was an unexpected situation.
The two boys’ eyes met.
“… … .”
“… … .”
Ain, who had been glaring at Ray for a while with trembling eyes, stirred up some wind and returned the dictionary to its place.
Phew!
Degururur!
“You little punk! Don’t clean that up right now! If it weren’t for that! You’d be rolling around on the floor right now after getting hit by my fist!”
“… … .”
Ray thought.
Both siblings are strange.
Is it genetic?
He tilted his head and strode forward, picking up the dictionary.
First of all, I felt like I had to catch the boy named Ain who had appeared before my eyes.
because.
‘Sky blue mana.’
It was because mana of a similarly rare color, though not as rare as blue, was fluttering in the opponent’s vessel.
And very richly too.
It was necessary to capture it for detailed observation.
Knock—knock—knock—
“… … !”
Ain started to back away as he saw Ray approaching him quickly.
Knock—knock—knock—
The two boys’ forward and backward movements accelerated at an incredibly fast pace.
From the moment Ain turned her body completely backwards.
Knock knock knock knock knock knock knock knock knock!
It changed to running.
The face of the running Ain changed to one that looked like it was about to cry.