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Side story 202. One-Won-Won Comics (2)
Baek So-dam’s words were a lie.
I don’t drink much so I don’t know if it was really alcohol, but at least she wasn’t a big eater. She finished her meal with a few pieces of meat and a few chopsticks of stir-fried vegetables.
Do-heon went into Ju-ru’s room without eating or drinking much. He was tired, but he also felt that it would be bad to just sit there for no reason.
So, only Lee Cheon-sang and Baek So-dam remained on the top floor of Jamiru.
“Are you okay?”
“What is it?”
Baek So-dam was still looking out the window. No one knew what she was looking at.
“Didn’t the General Staff issue an order banning external activities? You shouldn’t leave the Hwanheewon.”
“Then, will this footnote enter the Hwanheewon?”
“I don’t think I’ll feel good if I drink there.”
Baek So-dam smiled faintly.
“That’s why I drink here. I also try not to drink where I live.”
“okay.”
“The words of the General Staff are just for show. Well, the monthly salary will actually be cut, but the one who actually decides on it is Hwanheewon.”
“So that was an excuse to send the lord away.”
Baek So-dam smiled. She was still looking out the window.
“Justice is important no matter where.”
Still, I guess I’ll have to stay stuck at Hwanheewon for a while. Even if it’s justified, an order is an order.
Lee Cheon-sang sipped his alcohol in silence.
The silence was longer than expected. Baek So-dam rested her chin on her hand and looked out the window, while Lee Cheon-sang drank quietly.
How much time has passed like that?
“Who are you drinking for?”
“What are you talking about?”
Only then did Baek So-dam look at Lee Cheon-sang.
“You wouldn’t drink alcohol that disrupts your reasoning because it tastes good. It might be rash to say this, but I think you’d think getting drunk is meaningless.”
“I used to think that way.”
“Is it different now?”
“Yes.”
“So, what does it taste like?”
This time, Lee Cheon-sang looked out the window.
The moon was bright and there were many stars.
“For the first time, I lost a subordinate.”
“… … ?”
“I came back after the mission and had a drink. It wasn’t bad.”
Baek So-dam’s expression became strange.
“You’re a more emotional person than I thought?”
“When I drank alcohol, my mind became clouded. So the faces of my dead subordinates came to mind more clearly.”
“… … .”
“Since that day, drinking has been okay.”
Baek So-dam, who had been quietly observing Lee Cheon-sang’s expression, suddenly asked.
“You drink to remember your dead subordinates?”
“It’s just a habit now. But when I drink alone, I think of them.”
“That’s how you forget. Be it pain, sadness, or past relationships.”
“I won’t forget.”
“… … ?”
“The names and faces of the dead men are still vivid.”
“You haven’t forgotten?”
Instead, Lee Cheon-sang asked as if he was puzzled.
“How can I forget?”
It was a question so innocent that Baek So-dam couldn’t find the words to say.
Refilling the glass again, Lee Cheon-sang said.
“I didn’t know emotions. I knew what joy, anger, sorrow, and pleasure were in my head, but I didn’t understand them in my heart.”
“… … Right now?”
“I vaguely understand. But I don’t think I’m good enough to be called human.”
“… … .”
“So maybe I’ll try to remember more.”
“To be human?”
“It was hard for me to understand that their deaths had made me human for a brief moment.”
Baek So-dam smiled bitterly.
“is it so?”
“But that doesn’t matter anymore.”
“… … ?”
“The dead are forgotten. Most of my dead men had no families. Who will remember them?”
Baek So-dam’s eyes wavered.
Contrary to her expression, the words that came out of her mouth were quite cold.
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“What’s the point of remembering? He’s already dead.”
“It’s natural for people to be forgotten when they die. But they don’t want that.”
“How do you know that?”
“The majority do not want to be forgotten. I think that my dead subordinates are no different from others.”
“Because you’re human?”
“Because we are human.”
Lee Cheon-sang emptied his glass.
“So I plan to remember them. Until I die.”
Baek So-dam, who had been watching him quietly, filled his glass for him.
“Who will remember you when you die?”
“I don’t wish to.”
“Why? Even though you may not seem human, if you started to understand others, you would know how scary and sad it is to be forgotten.”
“I don’t want to leave this difficult task to others.”
“Is it hard to remember?”
“Isn’t it easy to remember, but difficult to get emotional?”
“… … .”
“I should forget and live my life. Isn’t that what it means to be human?”
Baek So-dam’s eyes trembled.
“No, you are wrong.”
“… … .”
“Because we are human, we live without forgetting. You have become a decent person without even realizing it.”
“I still have a long way to go. I don’t have any particular obsession with becoming a human being.”
“So what do you want?”
“Just live like you are now.”
“A very dangerous life, huh?”
“Your life is in danger, but your mind is not so much in danger.”
“What does it mean?”
“My body may be in danger, but my mind is moving toward a single goal. So there is no danger. There is no confusion, so life is quite worth living.”
It’s worth living.
Baek So-dam never dreamed that those words would come out of Lee Cheon-sang’s mouth.
‘The body may be tired, but the mind is not tired… … .’
In Baek So-dam’s view, Lee Cheon-sang was already a human being.
At the same time, it was not human.
“No matter how hard my body is, if I can live for a goal worth dying for, I think that life is not bad at all.”
“Similar.”
How romantic, how clumsy, and yet how beautiful this statement is.
Baek So-dam smiled and handed me a glass.
“Give me a drink too.”
Lee Cheon-sang filled her glass.
“How was my day?”
“Are you talking about the criminal court?”
“Yes, in the criminal court.”
Lee Cheon-sang said as he emptied his glass.
“It was cool.”
“ha ha ha!”
Baek So-dam burst into laughter while drinking.
“You said it was cool? Is that all?”
“Isn’t being cool a good thing?”
“It’s good, rather than ugly. I thought you’d be quite pleased.”
“You didn’t do that to make me feel good, did you?”
“Of course. But wasn’t it refreshing? It was the moment when my political life outside of public service, which I hated to see, came to an end.”
Lee Cheon-sang’s eyes deepened.
“Will that be the end of it?”
“Of course. As you can see, not only the party members but also the Blood Demon Lord have seen the author’s ugly appearance. Although he has fallen and been twisted, the spirit of self-respect for the strong still lives in the Cheonma Sect. He has refused to fight the strong and has even given up his position as the party leader, so if rumors spread, no one will recommend him.”
“Isn’t that what being strong is all about?”
“Even in the strong, there is something called dignity. It is the dignity of the strong. The head of the criminal law party is an extremely important position, but if the person in that position succumbs to pressure, who would look upon him with kind eyes?”
“I don’t know if there is anyone to recommend him or not, but his life is not over.”
“Even though his body is not dead, he is not alive even if he were to live. He is a person who would sell his own parents for power outside of public service. He has no more room to go up and he is in a situation where he has to step down from his current position. Can’t we say that he is finished?”
“His political career may be over, but he is still alive.”
“therefore…….”
“I’ve heard that a cornered rat will even bite a cat’s nose.”
Baek So-dam paused.
“Does that mean he can go crazy and run wild?”
“I have seen many times how someone who has lost everything in an instant can make extreme choices. Rather, don’t you, Lord Won, know better than I do?”
“… … .”
“He must have a deep hatred for the lord. He may be more likely to target the lord than me or Do Dae-ju.”
“… … That makes sense.”
“I think it’s better to kill him before he does something useless, but if we take his life in this situation and the fact becomes known, public opinion will not be positive.”
Baek So-dam smiled faintly.
“You say you don’t know much about people, but at times like this, you read people’s minds incredibly well.”
“Observation is easy. Understanding is difficult.”
“I think you understand it well. That’s something I hadn’t thought of either.”
Baek So-dam sighed and leaned back in her chair.
“Then what should we do? Should we hunt down the right person and assassinate him? It’s better to eliminate the cause of the trouble.”
“If you’re confident that you won’t get caught, that’s not a bad thing either.”
Baek So-dam smiled faintly.
“I don’t know if it’ll be later, but I’m sick of it now. If you attack me, you attack me.”
“What if you regret it after getting hit in the back of the head?”
“Then you can save me. Just like I saved your life today.”
“… … .”
“Why? Are you not confident?”
Lee Cheon-sang, who had been quietly looking at Baek So-dam, nodded.
“I will protect your life to the best of my ability.”
“ha ha ha!”
Baek So-dam’s smile was cool and sad.
“Thank you for your words. But before you save my life, you have to worry about your own life. I won’t be able to save you again. I was also very upset.”
“I’ll keep that in mind.”
Baek So-dam laughed for a long time, wondering if it was fun or if she was happy.
Lee Cheon-sang drank alone until her laughter stopped.
Hwanhee Wonju, who had stopped laughing, stood up from his seat.
“I had a good drink today.”
She placed a few silver coins on the table.
“This is the alcohol I live with.”
“Unfortunately, I don’t like free drinks. I don’t like it when people look at me like I’m getting something for free.”
“All right.”
“But I will live, so there is no need to ask me to take it away.”
“Do you want empty words?”
“Okay.”
Baek So-dam put her hand on Lee Cheon-sang’s shoulder.
“This footnote.”
“Please speak.”
“You also know that the current new religion is wrong, right?”
“I know.”
“So that’s why you’re acting wild?”
“I just knew that it couldn’t go on like this.”
“I act because I know… … Does saving the Great Lord also have the same meaning?”
“no.”
Lee Cheon-sang looked up at Baek So-dam.
“He is my benefactor and he made a promise.”
“Can I hear what the promise is?”
“If the Lord permits, I will tell you later.”
“You seem sloppy, but you’re really picky, you know.”
Baek So-dam nodded.
“Please don’t die. I’m starting to get interested in you too.”
“All right.”
“See you later. I hope to see you under normal circumstances then.”
“Take a look.”
So Baek So-dam went down to Jamiru.
Lee Cheon-sang looked out the window.
As Baek So-dam walked, her escorts followed her.
‘You look confused.’
When I first saw it, I thought it was a poisonous snake, but today it was completely different.
Baek So-dam was a person who truly cared about the new religion. Her feelings were fully conveyed to Lee Cheon-sang.
What could be the matter with her?
Is this a situation as difficult to talk about as the White Bone God?
Lee Cheon-sang drank again.
“weigh.”