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In the past, I was a boy. Well, is there any man in the world who wasn’t a boy?
What would have been the feelings of Heilas and Kinuan when they saw me back then?
To them, I was still a worthless being, even though I seemed like a sprout. A weak being that could be trampled upon as much as they wanted.
I am not a boy now. At least I am finished growing up. Physically and mentally… … I should be an adult.
‘I don’t really know what being an adult means.’
But one thing is certain.
I didn’t want to trample on a child who seemed to have a bright future. I also wanted to teach him a lesson without any particular reason.
I’m sure that Haylas and Kinuan also had this kind of feeling, even if only a little, behind their own purposes, whenever they dealt with me.
“Don’t pretend to be Boyan’s guardian when you don’t even know him well.”
Even after seeing Yanaka’s skill in blocking bullets, he still managed to forcibly draw out the enemy.
Her shallow pretense made me laugh.
Let me think back to my boyhood.
If I were a boy, I would have shown fierce hostility towards Yanaka. At that time, I was a crazy person who went beyond sharp and would stab anyone I saw.
“Are you Boyan’s girlfriend? You have such eccentric tastes.”
“That’s not it. Boyan is under my protection.”
“Then take me. I’m telling you this in advance because I’m worried… … If you rush in with the complacent mindset that I won’t kill you, you’ll go straight to the afterlife. I’m a more cruel person than you think.”
I opened my eyes slightly and pulled out the murderous intent from within me.
I am a skilled killer. I can kill people without any hesitation. If I crossed the line, I crossed it a long time ago.
‘Are you the one who crossed the line?’
I stared at Yanaka. She flinched. It must have felt like a herbivore meeting a beast.
In the realm of instinct, Yanaka’s body would refuse to fight me.
“Lu, Luka, stop! Stop it! Yanaka is my friend.”
Boyan said pitifully. I said this without even looking at Boyan, but only looking at Yanaka.
“Your friend shot me. I can’t just let it go. I think it would be satisfying to at least take a limb or two.”
I walked briskly, bending my fingers roughly.
Yanaka took a step back without realizing it. Her eyes opened wide, as if surprised by her own retreat.
‘Haha, that’s funny.’
It seemed like Yanaka was meeting someone of my kind for the first time. ‘Someone of my kind’ is an expression I often use, meaning ‘strong people’.
‘At first, you’ll be scared and hesitate. That’s your survival instinct. But if you have the spirit of a warrior, then the next thing you do is move forward.’
The mental state required of a warrior is not to be fearless. It is to move forward in a state of recognizing fear.
Yanaka’s every reaction was funny. She was a kid with first-class potential.
‘Should I break just one arm? Will he scream and lose his will to fight if his arm breaks? Or will he become more violent?’
I know this is a crazy idea, but I was curious.
Even when my whole body was broken, I never lost my fighting spirit. Rather, the more difficult the situation became, the more I fought, scraping my strength to the bottom.
‘Can you do the same as me?’
Can you say that you will fight for Boyan even if your limbs are broken?
If you can do that, you will become first-class someday.
I would be laughing right now. I would be smiling very evilly. I don’t think there is a villain like that.
“Crunch!”
I felt Boyan rushing from behind. Boyan clung to my back and tried to strangle me.
“Oh my, what are you doing? Are you trying to fight a fight you’re not good at?”
I put my arm around Boyan’s neck to stop him from strangling me. Then I grabbed Boyan’s face with my hand.
Whirl!
Meanwhile, Yanaka attacked me with a pistol and a knife. The gunshots rang out and the knife cut through the air.
‘These kids are really making me laugh.’
It wasn’t threatening at all. Rather, it was admirable.
Kwajik!
I threw Boyan forward and blocked Yanaka’s view.
And in the meantime, he grabbed Yanaka’s arm and tried to twist it.
Swish!
Yanaka quickly pulled her arm away before I could catch her. It wasn’t against her will. Her implant circuits were glowing brightly.
‘The combat reflex implants worked.’
Under certain circumstances and conditions, the subcutaneous implanted chip sends electrical signals to the muscles. Since it is a reflex that does not go through the brain, the speed is fast.
‘However, the combat reflexes programmed with implants have simple patterns and sometimes malfunction.’
In a first-class field, you can figure out your opponent’s combat reflexes, guide them, and use them against them. But a simple, programmed combat reflex? That’s something only amateurs use.
“Run away, Yanaka. Mr. Luka is… … so strong! He’s a monster!”
Boyan, who had fallen, jumped up and said.
“I put you in my group. That’s why I’m not sending you to the adults so easily.”
Yanaka said, revealing his teeth.
‘It’s not some soft emotion like friendship or love.’
I opened my eyes. It was unexpected.
‘A sense of responsibility and belonging as the leader of the group.’
As someone who served in the military, that feeling resonated with me even more.
I stepped back and straightened my posture.
“Relax. I’m also a s*ut. If you want to play more, you can come back, Boyan. It’s your life anyway, and I’m a laissez-faire person.”
Yanaka questioned my words instead.
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“Do you approve of Boyan’s drug use?”
“Even if I think about it, there’s no other way. I’m a human who wants to become stronger, so I changed my limbs to machines and chemically treated my nervous system. I’m not in a position to tell others not to use drugs because it’s dangerous.”
Yanaka’s shoulders slumped as if the tension had eased. The hand holding the knife also loosened.
“I guess you’re not as closed-minded as I thought.”
“And if you have any trauma about your parents or other adults, deal with it on your own. Don’t drag the poor kids into it.”
As soon as I spoke, Yanaka glared at me fiercely. My words touched her sore spot.
“If you want to admonish me… … .”
I smiled and raised my hand.
Yanaka’s combat reflexes were already figured out. Her movements were obvious.
match!
I took a step forward and slapped Yanaka on the cheek with my palm. Then I grabbed her dress with my other hand and kicked her foot.
puck!
Yanaka, whose mouth was torn open, staggered and tried to lift the knife.
Ting!
I grabbed Yanaka’s knife with my fingers and threw it away.
“I was so impressed that I tried to let you pass, but it seems you misunderstood something. You shot me. And I am the one who holds the power of life and death in this place. Whether I scold you or not, it is up to me. I have no freedom to choose whether to listen to you or not.”
“Mr. Luca! Stop it! Yanaka isn’t a bad kid!”
“Boyan, if you want to stop me, don’t appeal to my emotions. Make a deal or negotiate. This is not something I’m talking about, it’s something you talk to other people about.”
I said it coolly.
“I, I, there’s nothing I can do for you, Mr. Lu, Mr. Lu. But, if you keep hitting Yanaka, he’ll hate you. He’ll really hate you.”
I tilted my head and looked at Boyan.
“Hey, Inma. Are you calling that a threat? Saying you’ll hate me?”
“I, I’m not an adult yet. I have nothing. My only weapon is hating my guardians.”
I raised my head high and touched the back of my neck.
“… … It’s ridiculous, but let’s just move on. I’ll say it again, if you show any signs of drug overdose, you should know to throw me in a closed ward right away. Even if I’m a country, I’ll feel bad for Regor if you become a wreck.”
“I’ll keep that in mind.”
“I’ll tell Jafar, so get a prescription from a proper hospital and doctor. If it’s for strengthening purposes, you can’t just decide on the dosage and use it. I know this because I’ve experienced it myself.”
After giving advice, I looked down at Yanaka. She was sitting on the floor.
“I lost. Take Boyan.”
Yanaka was looking down with a gloomy face. At first glance, it looked like she was about to cry.
“Boyan is nobody’s property. Whether you follow me or not is up to Boyan.”
I nodded to Boyan.
“Right now… … I’ll stay with Yanaka and then return in an hour or two.”
Boyan answered quickly. I thought that would be better too.
I saw Boyan approaching Yanaka.
During that time, I was busy chasing Kinuan and neglecting Boyan. In the meantime, a lot has happened to Boyan, and it seems that Yanaka has helped him in many ways.
I hesitated as I was about to leave.
“I’m sorry I haven’t been paying attention to you all this time, Boyan.”
Boyan opened his eyes wide. His mouth was also wide open.
“You’re suddenly asking me for an apple? Mr. Luca?”
“Is it that shocking?”
“I thought Mr. Luca didn’t know how to apologize. He would rather kill the person he had to apologize to. I thought he wouldn’t apologize.”
I’m not that twisted of a person. I wonder what kind of person Boyan has imprinted on me.
“Well, that’s okay. If you have any problems, come to me. Even if I’m busy and out of the office, come to me as many times as you want. At least consult with me and do something. I won’t stop you no matter what you do. But as your guardian, I need to know what you’re up to.”
Boyan’s eyes sparkled as if he was moved.
“I was wrong too. I should have told Mr. Luca, not anyone else. In the future… … .”
… … I hate this kind of atmosphere.
“Just stop there. I’m starting to reach my limit because of my personality.”
“Oh, um, yeah. Was it a bit over-emotional?”
“okay.”
Boyan closed his mouth and nodded vigorously.
* * *
It was only later that I heard about Yanaka from Boyan.
“Yanaka is a special student at our school. I heard she’s some kind of military special student who’s related to pilots.”
“If you’re a pilot, can you fly an airship?”
“I don’t know that much either. The classes are completely separate. Yanaka doesn’t even tell you directly.”
Boyan explained Yanaka with an excited expression.
Yanaka seemed to be known as a charismatic figure within the school. He certainly had a strangely mysterious and neutral vibe that made him popular among his peers.
“Yanaka said that street dancing was just a temporary escape. He said he enjoyed it until he became an adult. And he has extensive knowledge of other races. He knows why I’m struggling.”
Boyan seemed to have caught Yanaka’s attention because he was the only crawler to enter Border City’s prestigious school.
“Do you like Yanaka?”
“Yes? Me?”
Boyan reacted indifferently.
“I’m just asking just in case.”
“Even though I’m a bit unusual… … I find heteros*xual relationships a bit hard to understand. No matter what people say, I like crawler girls.”
“Hmm, that’s fortunate.”
I folded my arms and nodded in satisfaction. Perhaps, of all the people around me, Boyan might be the most normal.
“Oh, and I was introduced to a hospital by Japa. I also received a prescription.”
This part is a little awkward to talk about.
I honestly think Boyan is definitely going to get addicted to drugs. I hope I’m wrong.
Whether or not the intentions were sound, habitual drug use and dependence inevitably led to addiction. It was not something that could be controlled by willpower alone.
‘But a crawler’s lifespan is about half that of a natural human. Once you’ve set a goal, you don’t have the luxury of going around and around, figuring out this and that.’
I nodded vaguely and listened to Boyan’s plan. He said he would quit after graduating from school, passing the exam, and becoming a federal official.
“Thank you for listening to my story.”
Boyan bowed politely and left.
After I made sure Boyan was completely out of the room, I tried to contact Jafar.
Beep.
It just so happened that I got the first call from Jafar.
-Hoyoot, Mr. Luca. Is Boyan by your side right now?
“I just confirmed that it fell and contacted you. There’s no need to act like a fool.”
-Ahem, you are being harsh. I was just saying that out of courtesy. I handled Boyan as you said. And as for the girl named Yanaka… … .
“Why that girl?”
– We can’t have any problems with that girl. I can’t handle her. I checked her background and she’s connected to a federal military project. I don’t need to explain what that means, do I?
“Well, it’s a good thing I didn’t break my arms and legs.”
-I’m not joking when I say I can’t handle it.
“I’m not kidding. I almost did. That kid even shot first.”
There was silence for a moment.
– Mr. Luca, you won’t die if you get shot a few times. Next time something like that happens, be an adult and endure it.
Becoming an adult is fu*king hard, I guess.